I Want to See Again

 

     I heard the Gospel about the blind man once more, and this time, Luke 18:35-43 resonated with me in a deeply familiar way. It reminded me of one of BroA’s most frequently shared reflections during recollections. He would always ask, “Which line strikes you the most?” And yesterday, the words “Lord, I want to see again” struck me profoundly.

     The blind man’s plea was simple yet profound. He longed for sight—not just physical, but perhaps even spiritual. And it made me think of where we are now in our journey with God.

     I remember the early days—those moments when we were like the disciples at Pentecost, on fire with the Holy Spirit. The vision was undeniable. We were filled with zeal, eager to bring others closer to Christ through service. That fire was contagious, drawing many into the mission. We lived with the certainty that God was with us, that He would provide for us.

     But of course, the honeymoon stage doesn’t last forever. Desert experiences come, and our authenticity in following the Lord is tested. Fr. Edgardo Arellano, in his book The Value of Suffering, speaks of how easy it is to follow God’s will when it is honorable and convenient. But when conditions change—when life becomes uncertain, difficult, or less rewarding—we begin to waver. “Many enjoy obeying God's will for as long as it is honorable and convenient. But the minute conditions change, dispositions also change... Yes, obedience is easy when it suits our preference, but when it is inconvenient and unreasonable, we hate it.”

     There was a time when we did not care about material sustenance. All we wanted was to be with Jesus, knowing and loving Him through our mission. But as time passed, many of us thought we had outgrown that phase. New influences shaped our perspectives, and the radical way of following Christ began to feel outdated, even inconvenient. Commitments, once considered lifelong, began to fade. Some became disillusioned. Others found new directions, and new priorities. And slowly, the fire that once burned so brightly started to dim.

     This blindness is not always about losing sight completely. Sometimes, it is lukewarmness—drifting slowly, until we no longer burn with the same passion we once had. We forget the call. We no longer see as clearly as before. And before we realize it, we have settled into comfort instead of mission.

     Yet, in moments of stillness, we must ask ourselves: Have we lost sight of the call? Have we become blind to the purpose that once set our hearts ablaze?

🙏 Lord, open our eyes again. Let us see clearly once more. The mission You gave us has not changed. Your call is just as urgent as it was when we first heard it. The fire You placed in our hearts is still there. We just need the grace to be freed from the rubbles of disillusionment, doubt, and worldly distractions.🙏

“Do not conform to the standards of this world, but let God transform you inwardly by a complete change of your mind. Then you will be able to know the will of God—what is good and is pleasing to Him and is perfect.” (Romans 12:2)

     Wherever we are now—whether in the same place of service or in a different field—may we never lose sight of the passion that once drove us to serve.  May we ask the Lord to remove our blindness and help us see His will again.  And may we have the grace to follow it.

     This is the heart of Brevolution—a revolution of the heart - to rekindle the fire, to see again, and to rise up in mission. The call remains. The urgency is real. And the time is now.

“Restore to me the joy of your salvation and grant me a willing spirit, to sustain me.” (Psalm 51:12)

     Lord, let us see again.